Comfort Zone

I’m about to embark on an adventure! Yes, a real adventure! I’m going to Kentucky for a week for a women’s outdoor adventure camp thingy. I’m going alone and have to fly to Nashville, then drive 2 hours to the middle of no where Kentucky. Then I’ll be caving, canoeing, ziplining, and other outdoorsy shit. You’re probably asking a few questions at this point. Let me see if I can help.

Am I manic?
No, but I was when I booked this trip and it seemed like a really great idea at the time. Right how I’m rapidly face palming cause I don’t really want to go anymore.

Does this even sound like something you would even do?
No, not at all. I’m not really outdoorsy and I need 2 hours to get ready just to be around people other than Greg. I also am petrified of groups of women and don’t like to go anywhere alone. I also am not fond of driving places I don’t know my way around in. I’m scared half to freakin’ death.

Then why are you going?
Because I’m tired of being a quitter. I always sign up to do things when I’m feeling good then the minute I feel the slightest bit anxious I back out. Well, I’m done quitting things. If I sign up for something I’m following through. I don’t like the way I feel about myself or like the way I perceive others think about me every time I give up or quit something. Plus, this will be a great experience for me. I will be totally out of my comfort zone and really give me the opportunity to shine through the face of adversity and fear. I’m freaking out now, but I know myself well enough to know that I will have a great time, meet new people who will hopefully not think I’m a weirdo, do some pretty adventurous stuff that I know I’ll love, and in the end have a great time. And even more importantly, I will be so so proud of myself for stepping up when I’m feeling scared and feeling depressed and fighting through anyhow.

And I’m sure you’re thinking, when will you be back? We’ll miss your witty posts.
I’ll be gone a week and can’t blog from where I’ll be. But I’m sure I’ll take notes and have a kick ass post for you when I get back next Monday. Er, probably not then cause I’ll be tired, but later in the week for sure. So while you’re not reading any new posts, check out the archives. There’s a lot of bad writing there that you might have missed. So wish me luck and pray that I don’t weird everyone out or fall out of a tree or something. Until then…

p.s. That’s Orion my kitty. He’s super great!

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